The Road To Recovery pt86

Been a week of relief, I received some incredible news which has pretty much given me a new lease of life.

 

Rewind to a week and a half and I was at the hospital undergoing tests … it all started with a visit to the doctors for a routine update on my illness and general well-being, after chatting with the doc about various things he insisted on doing some quick tests there and then … the problem I had was gut related, and the doc was a bit concerned about the symptoms. I had to go to the hossy for more tests and then await results, I was being tested and examined for bowel cancer !!

I never said a word to anyone, not my kids, not my family or friends … I just did my best to block it away and just pray things would be ok… The results finally came back at the beginning of this week, after all the tests it turns out I have Irritable bowel syndrome … yes, it’s official, I am an irritating arse . Well as you can imagine, the news was a massive relief and although I am now diagnosed with a condition, I can start getting treatment for it at least and the fact that it wasn’t the big “C” was a relief that I cannot possibly do justice to in words.

 

Something else that I want to share is dreams, or rather nightmares, I have (for a loooong time) been having problems sleeping, I have really bad night sweats and am a very restless sleeper (I also talk in my sleep which is a bit embarrassing LOL) But I have a recurring dream/nightmare that really bothers me. It is not monsters or shit like that, it is a real life situation, anyway … when I have these dreams I wake up teary and regardless of the time I am wide awake, I can NEVER get back to sleep after these dreams and they really disturb me emotionally. The whole day after an episode is awful, I just cannot block the dream from my mind and I end up replaying it in my head… it’s horrible. Although the scenarios are usually different, the underlying core of the dreams is the same, I wish I knew how to banish them from my life but have not managed it so far, they seem to be sporadic in their occurrences and despite my soul-searching after each episode there is no obvious trigger for them, they just happen, I would guess I have these dreams on average about once a month, but the aftermath from them lasts for days, I really hate them.

 

Another bank holiday tomorrow … marvellous! … guess I will just stay at home on the computer then LOL … same old, same old.

Went to the gym on Friday and had a work out, hoping to get back Tuesday for another session, really want to go more often but I have to be realistic with finances.

Well that’s pretty much it for this update, Fantastic news on the tests, bit of concern about dealing with the IBS, but fuck it … It will be a piece of piss compared to what I could have been facing.